Yesterday while I was looking up some drug interactions, I inadvertently came across this video “section” of Web MD called Embarrassing Question… (scroll down a bit on the linked page and you will be able to see the vids). None of them would work on my computer but, lucky me, there are transcripts!
Before my skate trip to Houston in February, I mentioned to Alaska that I might like for him to pick me up from the airport when I returned.
At that point, it had been 4 weeks since we’d seen each other and I was really starting to miss him. Even for my extracurricular escapades and the fact that we’d been communicating nearly every day, I missed the hell out of him and wanted to feel his gigantic chocolate body next to mine…
When he couldn’t make the effort to come and get me because he was showing houses to a client he already admitted to disliking immensely (AND after knowing about my trip for over a week), I composed my little note to him on the train/bus ride back to my apartment.
And later, when I texted him I’d made it home safe, he simply answered: masturbate for me now and send me the video
Just do I as I say
This made me even more upset with him, but I did as I was told…
Before I fell asleep, he did send me a “good girl” 😉
I arrived at The Kisser’s house and let myself in as instructed.
He stood up from his place on the couch, walked toward me and immediately began kissing the hell out of me.
Mmmmm! They was as good as I remembered!!
Unlike the first/last time, there was no small talk while we sat and got comfortable with each other – I don’t even know why he led me over to his couch! We only kissed there for a couple of moments before he said, “I’m gonna cum all over the living room before I even taste your pussy! Let’s go to the bedroom.”
There are a couple of posts from over a year ago – namely this one – that paint Alaska in a bad light… “we” were new and I was scared/timid and not able to communicate my feelings to him. So I communicated them here… It’s still scary for me to go back and read some of those words because it’s truly how I felt.
But, as our “old” relationship evolved, I got better at communicating with him…
As a matter of fact, I “broke up” with him on New Year’s Eve (2015) because I had expressed my feelings to him and he chose to ignore them.
AND, even after that, as we re-continued things, I was able to articulate all my feelings to him when the whole Amanda incident happened…
When I read that post now it still hurts, but I wonder if maybe Alaska was just as shocked about things as I was… I mean, we did just finish a whole orgasmic mutual masturbation thing… 😉 and were in our post-coital cuddling place… naked… and he made love to me three times after that…
…and he with me (even though his communication is more non-verbal) – The Morning After
“Every person was born to live out the dream they have inside”
“There is a thief in your mind who is after your dreams, his name is DOUBT. If you see him, call the cops and keep him away from the kids, cuz he is wanted for murder. For he has killed more dreams than failure ever did. He wears many disguises and, like a virus, will leave you blinded and divided and will turn you into a ‘kinda’.”
“If you ‘kinda’ want something, then you will ‘kinda’ get the results you want. What is that dream? What ignites that spark? You can’t ‘kinda’ want that, you gotta want it with every part of your whole heart.”
“You will fall many times, but who’s counting?”
“Pain is life. But you can choose what type. Either the pain on the road to success, or the pain of being haunted with regret.”