My most recent one night hook-up really threw me for a loop.
I was bent over in front of him and, as he was fucking me, I caught my reflection in the full-sized closet mirror and was completely horrified by what I saw.
It totally grossed me out!
And I couldn’t stop staring at my reflection.
Stuck, like a deer in headlights!
What makes it worse is the knowledge that men are visually stimulated…
Since that moment, I haven’t been able to shake that disgusting snapshot in time and that’s all I can see when I look at myself – with or without clothes.
I thought I was okay with my appearance.
It’s a little disappointing on so many levels.
I thought I was doing well…
How do I change the way I see me?