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After I asked Mick to please stop because I feared for my and my family’s safety, he opened the proverbial flood gates.
It was like he had spent the past couple of days constructing hateful notes to me and then sent them all as soon as I re-engaged.
The first was his flippant comment email:
That sounds pretty threatening.
I’m sending you the other stuff that I have written. And then it will be turned over to the psychiatrist I spoke of in my other writings as evidence should you do something crazy to get your way.
Should *I* do something crazy?!?!
Am I missing something here?
After that, he sent three more.
The following emails are the most hateful, evil, condescending, incorrect, accusatory, and-let’s-just-say-many-other-offensive-things, emails I have ever received in my entire life.
I am posting the screen shots here for you to read if you so choose… And as evidence in case something dreadful actually happens…
“I have also found that I know somebody who works for your company.”
“Your story is always different than what several other people tell. Why is that?”
I sure hope those comments were merely a scare tactic, because it worked and I am worried that he’s going around asking everyone he sees about me! (Even though I am aware that the world doesn’t revolve around me and that he probably hasn’t asked anyone. **uncomfortable laughter**)
Those two comments have me more frightened than anything he’s said. I even considered calling the police and filing a report, but I didn’t want to overreact…
Those comments made me question a couple of statements he has made to me in the past.
– When we first met, Mick’s first wife was killed by her boyfriend 15 years ago (then the BF committed suicide). Recently, that time frame has changed to 25.
– Mick has alluded a few times to having taken someone’s life, but he wasn’t able to tell me more details because then I might turn him in
I now wonder if maybe Mick murdered his ex-wife and her boyfriend… She probably tried to communicate with Mick; tell him she wanted out of the relationship, but he wouldn’t listen. Similar to what’s going on here. So she moved from Kansas City to Phoenix with her new boyfriend to get away from Mick’s scary, gaslighting ass. But then Mick was pissed and built all these stories in his head about her and the new boyfriend – similar to what he’s doing with me now. So he got rid of all his possessions and his identity and followed them to Phoenix, killed them and then moved to the Colorado mountains to live as a hermit for 10 years.
Oh my goodness! Now who’s making up stories?!?
Seems kinda believable though, eh?
Fuckslut is a great word, though… I think I will use that one.
Yeah… I’m sure that giant list of negative things was only about me.
I’d be surprised as hell if he’s given any of this to anyone, let alone spoken with someone about it. He’s totally whackadoo and I would hope a professional would see that.
Thank goodness *I* twisted off!?!?!? Yes, thank the fucking Universe on that note!!! Managing that giant tax burden for you so you can continue to live under the radar would be so totally fucking awesome for me. That would make YOU exactly the same kind of moocher as my ex-husband and Loserman. Thanks for NOT doing that, asshole!!! That would have caused a whole OTHER problem.
Email #4 – This one will be split in the middle… A two-fucking-parter… Then it’s over.
I think he added that first sentence at the last minute, before he hit his final “Send”.
The last comments about my job and my father and promotions? I had to re-read that 4 times to make any sense of it. And, if I understood it correctly, most of it is wrong.
- I gave him TWO examples of when I thought he was being too demanding of my time….
- I removed his hand from my arm because his rough and calloused finger had been rubbing the same exact spot for too long and it was starting to feel raw.
- I was joking about the willow switch because there were hundreds of willow trees where he said he was looking. (also, I was incredibly tired. I couldn’t stop yawning the entire time we were together. I even asked him if I could go home because I was so wasted. He ignored my request for almost an hour before he brought me back home)
I am in fact, mean, hateful and full of great anger… TOWARDS MICK!
So many lies and concoctions woven into a few simple truths… Just enough for me to seriously question my sanity.
Since September 4th, I have had no more contact with him. I have blocked his phone number and all his emails go directly to my SPAM folder.
Even so, it was (and is) very tough to read those letters without taking them to heart.
At least partly.
I am so grateful I have actual friends to help remind me –
I am NONE of those horrible things.
And, aside from being a little worried that I will find him lurking around every single corner I turn, I feel much happier now that he’s gone.