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I’m Over It

on November 19, 2018

Kink isn’t my thing.

I tried it and I like it.

But I am unable to find a compatible partner.

And I’m sick of trying.

It hurts too much.

The 1st one broke up with me before we even got started (Mr. X)

The next one – who was also my 4th one – was a narcissist that drove me to drink, quite literally (Alaska)

The 3rd one made a “contract” with me and then stole my car when I broke it two weeks early.

I no longer want to lick an asshole or feel a switch against the back of my thighs.

I don’t want to have my breasts slapped or my nipples pulled.

No restraints, please.

No choking or humiliation talk.

I’m over it.

So over it…


7 responses to “I’m Over It

  1. Isabella LeCour says:

    I know how you feel.

  2. missagathaarmstrong says:

    Oh flower – I’m so sorry. I’m done too but not through choice…. after seven blissful years He disappeared.

    I relocated from London to suffolk – He dropped me and all my worldly treasures off at my new cottage and that was the last i saw of Him.

    It broke me completely but took a while as i was still in hope. It is now just over a year and although I’ve been told not to stop trying … it took a life time to find Him i don’t have a life time left to try again.

    So… at 50 i have decided to become a contented spinster with cat! Regular sex bores me so that is that.

    I do have blissful memories and I choose those to keep me happy and I must remember that i had passion even for a while where some never find their bliss.

    I send my love to you sweet girl – xxx

    • smitten says:

      Oh my!!! That’s horrible. I was always so jealous of what you and Sir had. Now I find out he was a total jerk too 😦 how sad.

      Cats are nice, though. And I have been thinking about getting a dog.

      • missagathaarmstrong says:

        i seriously dont think of him that way. we had seven years of such delight and i would rather think of him in that way. He did what he did because for one reason or another – he had had enough… He gave me a great and many precious moments – and oh how i still love him.

  3. I do believe we are in the same boat in the ocean. I’ve a boyfriend but when I brought up kink, he looked at me as if I had 5 medusa heads. We’ve been together for 4 months so I wanted to get expectations out there and discussed. Maybe it’ll be a slow process, I don’t know. I do see a dominant personality in him, so we’ll see.

    Don’t give up……your person is out there ❤

    • smitten says:

      Good luck. I hope it works out for you and has a storybook ending 🙂
      I fear that my seeking out “love” so strongly has cursed me. I am hoping that giving up on my search will be the key… But I am not ready for a new relationship yet and I am finally mature enough to see that.

      • I think that was my issue……I was searching too hard. And I wasn’t ready either. I wasn’t sure what I wanted. Once I let go of everything beyond my control, focused on what I could control, it was like the puzzle just fell into place and he somehow fit perfectly. We are complete opposites, but peas in a pod. We do stupid things like race each other to sleep…….I’ve beaten him once. Lol!!!

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