Smitten with Him

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Freeing Myself

on November 20, 2019

Perfection takes time

The love-bombing started right away

We started seeing each other near the end of October (4 years ago now…*sigh*)

Inviting me to holiday events with his family

Helping me to feel instantly important

I didn’t know

To be honest, I never even really thought about it

I just thought he was into me

So I got really into him

Then he changed completely

Turning into the punisher

Asking me to learn things for him; to help him with his business

Then telling me I was wrong when I would try and share what I’d learned

I would call him out

We would fight

I would tell him “Never again!”

But he would call

And I would go back

Over and over and over

Each time, the love-bombing period was shorter than the last

It must have been frustrating for others to watch my insanity

Watching me struggle to make the same exact choice again and again and expecting a different result

Now here I am again

Struggling with the previous choices I made

Knowing I can’t go back and re-choose what’s already been chosen

But still wanting to choose him

5 responses to “Freeing Myself

  1. The V Pub says:

    It can be very difficult to finally leave a relationship. I wish that I had an answer.

  2. You got this. Remember your worth, there’s better out there for you. Choose yourself. I’m here if you need to talk! ❤️

    • smitten says:

      Thank you, Sweetheart! ❤ I am now working on me. Took almost 50 years, but I finally learned that I need to work on myself first. This is going to be a period of self-introspection and learning how to be happy/grateful again! I appreciate your support so very much! XOXO

      • Yes! Self love and looking out for number one is the most important!!! You’ve got this beauty! You are so strong, well done lovely!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Enjoy this new journey you’ve been blessed with, better things are coming!

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