Smitten with Him

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Idiotic Ramblings of a Lost Soul

Interesting conundrum:

I need to love myself more and start believing that I am, in fact, relevant and worthy.

However, I also need to remember that the world doesn’t revolve around me and my heightened sense of self is irrational

How do I reconcile the two?

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Less

10/19/2020 (a Monday)

Less drunk. Less mad. Less hate.

Not drunk at all, as a matter of fact. But it took me a full day to recover from it.

Still there is hate and anger, but much less today than the past week – it was relentless (hence the over-drinking Friday and Saturday).

Got another 100% on my Master Herbalist course. It feels good, but I’m not exactly¬†into it, per se. I hope I can get into it more when I get to learning more about the actual plants, and making stuff, instead of the botany sections where I am presently.

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Actual Goals

10/12/2020

I set a few actual 30-day goals last week (gotta start small, since sticking to my goals is a relatively new concept to me)

  • Journaling at least twice a week (pretty good about it)
  • Exercise every single morning (pretty good about it)
  • Only eat when hungry (not so good about it)
  • Start exercise every day by 7PM (50/50 on this one)
  • Make at least $200/week driving rideshare (fail)

Except I am writing this entry instead of exercising…

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