Smitten with Him

grown-up stuff happens here sometimes

Other People’s Stories

I am sick of people being so self-absorbed that they can’t see others’ stories

Maybe it’s bothering me because I’ve been getting caught up in my own story and forget about the others – so I am trying to dispel my guilt

But probably it’s bothering me because…

…people…

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Sharing Is Caring

I’m back on Tinder again

It’s an on and off again relationship

Much like the one I had with Alaska

Anyway, here’s a rejection I’d like to share with you

This was after dude ignore me two times when I asked him if he wanted to go out…

“Omg! I don’t know how I missed that message.”

Twice.

Yeah, right.

 

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Tolerance

I’m out of practice

Constantly at the end of my rope

Quitting because I can’t cope

Seems like I’m practicing intolerance

And getting quite good at it, I might add

Spending more time angry

Forgetting to be grateful

Making thoughtless choices

Perhaps in hopes one of them will make things better

Or end them completely

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You Can’t Go Anywhere Any More

Seriously…

angry graffiti

Like it wasn’t bad enough before when “all” we had to worry about was going to large events with tons of people?

Now we have to worry about a short trip down the street to the local dive bar for a nice, relaxing happy hour.

How can you relax and enjoy your “happy” hour if you’re constantly worried about some lunatic crashing in at 1:30 AM brandishing weapons?!

(or any old time, really)

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My Psychotic Break (Part 2)

To read Part 1, click HERE

After all that bullshit, we didn’t have another interaction for 6 days.

And it’s the 5th week of barely any contact…

On that Friday afternoon, he sent me a text. “You won’t believe it, but I hyperextended my knee playing basketball last night.”

He was right. I didn’t believe it…

“Oh, that’s terrible,” I answered.

There were a few more trite comments where I tried to be nice and pretend like I gave a shit.

Then our chat was over.

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My Psychotic Break (Part 1)

After I told all you folks that I was completely done with Alaska and never ever in a million years going to take him back,

I took him back.

I was so ashamed that I couldn’t write about it.

Just like all those other times before I stopped writing because of him.

Because I didn’t want to hear your objections.

Because you were right.

And at the end end of it all, I ultimately broke.

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Bipolarity

I’ve been seeing a shrink

It started after I told Thing #1 I wanted to kill myself and asked if she wanted to come with

That was when I finally realized I was out of control

It’s been since high school, some 30 years ago that I’ve felt so self-destructive

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I’m Over It

Kink isn’t my thing.

I tried it and I like it.

But I am unable to find a compatible partner.

And I’m sick of trying.

It hurts too much.

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Trying Something New

So, I have mentioned a couple of times here that I am trying to build my own Network Marketing business

I even wrote a post asking my readers to check it out and let me know what they think of it

A few actually did

Now I am here again asking for your support in my new-ish endeavor

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Last Isn’t Always the Best Color

I’m not good enough to be anything but last.

How do I know?

People keep showing me

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