I need to love myself more and start believing that I am, in fact, relevant and worthy.
However, I also need to remember that the world doesn’t revolve around me and my heightened sense of self is irrational
How do I reconcile the two?
I guess I’m supposed to have them, right?
Every time I set a life goal for myself, I rationalize myself out of it
Or I make it totally un-achievable or something
So then I can hate all over myself for failing
Or quitting
It’s Christmas.
You’re the only thing that I miss.
There’s no reason; I never meant anything to you; you never got me a gift.
Holidays were just a time for you to ignore me. Read the rest of this entry »
I am sick of people being so self-absorbed that they can’t see others’ stories
Maybe it’s bothering me because I’ve been getting caught up in my own story and forget about the others – so I am trying to dispel my guilt
But probably it’s bothering me because…
…people…
I’m back on Tinder again
It’s an on and off again relationship
Much like the one I had with Alaska
Anyway, here’s a rejection I’d like to share with you
This was after dude ignore me two times when I asked him if he wanted to go out…
“Omg! I don’t know how I missed that message.”
Twice.
Yeah, right.
Seriously…
Like it wasn’t bad enough before when “all” we had to worry about was going to large events with tons of people?
Now we have to worry about a short trip down the street to the local dive bar for a nice, relaxing happy hour.
How can you relax and enjoy your “happy” hour if you’re constantly worried about some lunatic crashing in at 1:30 AM brandishing weapons?!
(or any old time, really)
My theory:
Narcissists are becoming more and more common because –
I’ve been seeing a shrink
It started after I told Thing #1 I wanted to kill myself and asked if she wanted to come with
That was when I finally realized I was out of control
It’s been since high school, some 30 years ago that I’ve felt so self-destructive
Kink isn’t my thing.
I tried it and I like it.
But I am unable to find a compatible partner.
And I’m sick of trying.
It hurts too much.
Smitten with Him 