Reminders so I don’t take him back:
- Telling me my feelings are stupid when he doesn’t understand them
- His conceit and selfishness
- He’s a loud open-mouth chewer
- It’s always a struggle for his attention and time
- Not keeping his word, aka: empty promises
- Lack of respect and appreciation
- Ignorance (circling back to #1)
If you love me, fucking show me!!!
(It’s taped at the head of my bed, so it’s there as the first and last thing every day)
Since our little ‘disagreement‘ a couple of weeks ago, I haven’t had much to say to Alaska.
He has called to check up on me a few times and my interaction with him has been minimal at best.
Also, I have been trying to stay busy so it’s easier to say, “No” to him when he wants to ‘hang out’.
It’s difficult to share pieces of myself and be vulnerable when I don’t feel I’m being appreciated.
Re-blog of the original post on Om Swami: 24 Jul 2015 05:30 PM PDT
I once read a quote that said, “Love me and I’ll move mountains for you. Hurt me and I’ll drop those mountains on your head.” I think this basically sums up two aspects of our lives. One, how love, or lack of it, can make us feel about someone (or ourselves) and two, how we have mistaken self-gratification for love. Does love really mean that you will always be happy in a relationship? We are naturally miffed when things don’t go our way or when the other person doesn’t behave the way we expect them to.