Smitten with Him

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Foundations

Foundations
by Kate Nash

Thursday night,
everything’s fine,
Except you’ve got that look in your eyes,
when I’m telling a story
And you find it boring you’re thinking of something to say.
You’ll go along with and then drop it
And you humiliate me, in front of our friends.

Then I’ll use that voice what you find annoyin’
And say something like
“intelligent input darlin’ why don’t you just have another beer then?”

Then you call me a bitch and everyone we’re with will be embarrassed,
and I won’t give a shit.

[Chorus:]
My fingertips are holding onto the
cracks in our foundations,
and I know that I should let go,
but I can’t.
And everytime we fight I know it’s not right,
everytime that you’re upset and I smile
I know I should forget, but I can’t.

You said I must eat so many lemons,
’cause I am so bitter.
I said “I’d rather be with your friends mate,
’cause they are much fitter”

Yes it was childish
and you got aggressive
and I must admit that I was a bit scared,
but it gives me thrills to wind you up.

[Chorus]

Your face is pasty,
’cause you’ve gone and got so wasted,
what a surprise,
don’t want to look at your face,
’cause it’s making me sick.

You’ve gone and got sick on my trainers,
I only got these yesterday.
Oh my gosh, I cannot be bothered with this.

Well I’ll leave you there till the mornin’,
and I purposely won’t turn the heating on
and dear God, I hope I’m not stuck with this one.

[Chorus]

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I wanted to be in a good mood, but then work happened…

AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!! I wanted to be in a good mood today. Most days I want to be in a good mood… My last post even suggests that I wanted to be in a good mood!

I’ve written one other post about this co-worker in the past. It was lame and boring and I was going to delete it, but I didn’t… Well, she is in rare form today, let me tell you…Bitchy Mystique

I have talked to my boss about this co-worker before and the things that she says and how she acts, so at least she is aware of the problem and that this is not the first time. Boss-lady agrees, but says that “right now ‘bitchy girl’ is going through a very difficult time in her personal life.” Does that really give her an excuse to behave like this at work 2-3 days a week? This is the letter that I just sent to my boss about my super-mega-bitch co-worker from hell!

‘Bitchy girl’ came into my office and started spewing at me about how I make her feel stupid all the time and how I am always condescending to her. This was after I jokingly said to her that sometimes *I* am uncomfortable around *her* (hopefully you are catching the irony here?) (our boss had just left her office and bitchy girl had just said that our boss makes her feel uncomfortable. I was only trying to be silly.).

When she came in and started spewing at me, right before your meeting now, she closed my door and asked me to tell her why I feel so uncomfortable around her. I told her that it’s situations exactly like this where she corners me and starts attacking me. She told me again how stupid I make her feel all the time (those words were stressed) and asked me again why I am so uncomfortable around her. I wanted to tell her that I feel like I am walking around pins and needles around her: one day I say something and it’s okay but the next day I could say the exact same thing and I am the worst, most evil person on the planet. I understand this behavior coming from my 15-year-old daughter, but I don’t think that I should have to figure out how to deal with this behavior when I am at work – I shouldn’t have to act like I am dealing with a 15-year-old. In fact, I honestly don’t think that I should always feel like I am walking on glass whenever I speak to a peer, especially at work.

I feel that any other confrontations that I have with ‘bitchy-girl’ today will only be negative and turn out badly. I would like remove myself from the situation so I can try and displace myself from the things she said to me. I have a very hard time working alongside someone who thinks I am always talking down to her and treating her like a moron. Especially when I make such an effort NOT to treat her that way!

Thank you for listening and I would give anything to get to go home, but I can’t… So, I will try and behave.

But, this time I would like to officially go on the record and say that I have a severe problem with bitchy girl’s behavior.

I don’t have the hours to take the rest of the day off otherwise I would have just walked out while they were in their meeting (after sending the email to my boss); I checked before I wrote this. The hardest part about staying at work for the rest of the day is that Loverman has the day off and is waiting for me, in my neighborhood, to take me to lunch!! I could just leave for the rest of the day and be somewhere I want to be — somewhere with someone whom I do NOT make feel stupid and like a moron. Someone with whom I never feel uncomfortable.

(FYI – I am posting this out of spite and anger! She has no idea that I have a bog, but I feel like being severely passive aggressive — I almost left her name in it!)

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