Smitten with Him

grown-up stuff happens here sometimes

Struggling with Self-Control

Working through my ‘new’ allergies (or whatever-the-fuck-they-are) has made things a bit more challenging than I would prefer.

I guess it serves me right for all those times I thought someone was faking their food allergy.

And trying to keep my drinking in check is barely working at all ūüė¶

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Wonder and Courage

 

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Sub Group

I¬†decided to step outside my ‘box’ and try something a little different for a change.¬†It is too comfortable in my little closed-off world and I need to start “BECOMING”.

Becoming what, I don’t have a clue, but I have been hating myself for long enough for no good reason.

THAT SHIT NEEDS TO CHANGE AND THE ONLY PERSON TO CHANGE ME IS ME!

So, this past Wednesday night, I attended a local monthly Submissive Group.

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Monday Motivation: Authenticity


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Monday Motivation: Togetherness

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Monday Motivation: Dragons

Amazing message…

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Fear of Rejection

atelophobiafear of rejection

fear

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Monday Motivation: Courage

courage

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Complicated Grief?

I took a short grief quiz online a couple of weeks ago because this Loserman¬†thing was¬†making me nuts! I wish I could just throw the lovey-dovey, mushy-gushy feelings away — or possibly donate them to someone who needs them more than I do…¬†But, today I feel closer to being¬†over it than I did when I took that quiz. So, that’s something, right?

Anyway. I ramble…

The results of the quiz¬†stated that I could be suffering from “complicated grief”.

I thought, WTF? Isn’t ALL grief complicated?

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An Ending

Mr. X broke up with me last night.

But he told me he still wants to be friends *sigh*

Sure, whatever…

It hurts so much.

I shared more of myself with him than I have ever shared with anyone.

Even you guys.

I haven’t shared most of what happened between Mr. X and I with you all.

Regardless, I got quite attached to him as a result of transference.

Then he rejected me.

At least he had the decency to tell me.

I guess.

At least he wasn’t like Loserman – Mr. X had the courage to tell me it’s ‘over’.

To my face.

At this point I’ll take my lumps over in the corner…

Alone…

Feelings On-Off

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