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Popcorn Saved My Life

A little over a week ago, while I was driving to my aesthetician for my monthly mons pubis mingis removis, some crazy woman pulled directly in front of me while I was going about 20 miles per hour.

I had to slam on the brakes and crank the steering wheel far to the right in order to avoid hitting her. Breezy lurched up and over the curb and I am surprised as hell that we didn’t run that fucking bitch over!!

Err, that being said, it was unnerving (to say the least) and I was glad that the light was red so I could sit and breathe and recover.

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Opening Up

Opening Up

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I unloaded a lot on Alaska Monday night and he didn’t back down from any of it.

He let me cry and didn’t try to stop me. He let me tell him how frustrated I was. I even got a chance to tell him that I didn’t always like the way he treated me and that, for a brief while, I never wanted to see another dick because of how *he* face-fucked me.

After all of that, he took me into his lap, wrapped me in his arms and let me cry until I was done.

He told me how special I am and how truly honored he feels that I let him have so many of my “firsts”.

He took my face in his hands and made me look him in the eye as he thanked me for my submission.

I told him how hard it’s been to get over him. Every time I think I’m close, he sends me another text.

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The Bad Sub

The Bad Sub

I broke up with Alaska on New Years Eve at pretty much the strike of midnight.

At least it felt like a break-up…

I had been feeling strange about him all week before that. It was partly the fact that he hadn’t “marked” me the last time we were together: I didn’t know how to react or feel about it. And partly because his attentiveness had kinda dropped off.

But maybe I was making excuses because I was already looking for a reason to run.

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Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving

I had a lovely day with Alaska and his family and friends! Of course, it helped that I had already met half of them…

The atmosphere was comfortable. There was no stress or family drama. Alaska’s brother invited a client and his wife over to watch one of the football games that day (they had a bet going!).

Alaska and I even had time for some play before and after and an evening nap! (That boy sleeps a lot!! But I guess sex does that to a guy 😉 click here and scroll down to #4. Apparently it’s a thing.)

When I first arrived, I brought my veggie tray to the kitchen and said my “hellos” to Alaska’s brother and sister-in-law. I thanked them for having me and asked if there was anything I could do.

While I was helping with a few last-minute things, Alaska went downstairs to his apartment and instructed me to come down when I was done.

I am an obedient girl 😉 so I did as I was told.

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Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving

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This year I wasn’t going to do much of anything for Thanksgiving. Doom-n-Gloom and Thing #2 are going to a friend’s house and Thing #1 will be working.

I mentioned it briefly when I was over at Alaska’s house Tuesday night.

Wednesday afternoon I got the sweetest phone call. It was Alaska calling to ask if I would like to come over and spend Thanksgiving with his family and their friends.

I’ve already met some of his family and I thought it would be an interesting change from my normal quiet 4-person holiday…

With a family much different than the one I came from…

We talked about it for a minute and I accepted his invitation.

Put a Label On It

Put a Label On It

I was finally able to talk to Alaska Saturday afternoon.

After a little over three months of letting him fuck me and violate me and humiliate me, I thought it was time I knew where I stood in his life:

He doesn’t take me out places.

We haven’t been to dinner together (except one night at Wendy’s, so that doesn’t count), or a movie…

I asked him if he wanted to go to one of our local amusement parks with me last month before it closed for the season; he said “No. That’s not really my thing.”

I asked him one Sunday night if he wanted to come roller skating with me and he told me that he’s too old for it (really?! I am two years older!).

He doesn’t like to kiss.

He really doesn’t like PDA (we’ll get into that shortly).

However, he has introduced me to his father, mother, younger (and best friend) brother and two of his nephews.

He wants me to stay for the night whenever I go to his place and doesn’t want me to leave in the morning when it’s time for me to go.

He doesn’t just fuck me. We talk about things, too… I haven’t let him in very far. In actuality, I think that I know more about him… Which is strange because he is so very quiet.

We usually spend 2 nights a week together. Last Monday I spent almost a full 24 hours at his place.

…and there’s the way he holds me whenever we’re sleeping or in bed together…

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The Beginning of the End

The Beginning of the End

Read Part 1 here

Anyway, Sunday night “Good nights” were crap.

While I was in the air on my way home from my first trip to see him, TC had been reading my blog. He read the table of contents – more precisely the “Other ‘Other’ Men” page (which was temporarily removed… Too little too late. I know. The damage had already been done…). I went to bed completely hating on myself.

After such an awesome weekend with him, I wanted to have some time to swoon. But instead, this.

Therefore, Monday morning sucked. To make it worse, on top of my hating myself, TC avoided me all day long. He didn’t respond to my messages on Facebook and I think I even sent him a text. I tried to stay positive, though. Reminding myself that he has two jobs and a daughter; eventually that all has to factor in. I got used to his attention daily when, in reality, he has much more important things to deal with than me.

I felt so yucky Monday afternoon that I almost called to cancel a job interview I had scheduled for Tuesday morning. But I didn’t. Read more

Things in Twitter Crush Land…

Things in Twitter Crush Land…

…could only be better if we were able to see each other more often than…

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Never!

Other than that, I actually do appreciate all the time we have to spend apart.

We each have to learn how the other works and we have to discuss things.

Instead of just getting into bed every time we wanna fuck to forget, we actually have to deal with our shit. And we are dealing with it together. (A novel concept, right?)

That’s what we talked about the other night.

We talk about his family, his work, his friends.

His fear, his discomfort, his inadequacies.

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**ALL** LIVES MATTER!!!

**ALL** LIVES MATTER!!!

Sorry to interrupt my regularly scheduled programming

BUT

My facebook timeline is all mixed up….

Half of the updates are happy skating updates (some of my friends went on a skate cruise last weekend!) and family posts about loved ones…

Silly and uplifting memes…

And the other half is about hate crimes and civil rights violations… Police brutality and street violence… Our youth rioting… More kids bringing weapons to school…

Looting and burning…

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Some of my Skate Family is right in the middle of it! They called off last night’s Skate Night.

It’s so sad to see all of this happening again… Over and over again…

Please do me a favor and reach out to someone your normally wouldn’t and tell them that they are special and that they mean something.

And, when someone asks you for help, reach out and help them!

Because:

**ALL** LIVES MATTER!!!!

Every

Single

One

My heart aches for the City of Baltimore, which saw riots following the funeral of 25-year old Freddie Gray, who died while in police custody due to severe spinal cord injuries.

As a Buddhist and a follower of the teachings of Gandhi and Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., I both understand, but cannot condone, the violence that has erupted. I have no easy answers for either those enraged by the continued racial injustice, or those appalled by the violent rioting and looting the whole world is seeing.

Many say there can be no peace without justice, but so, too, can there be no true justice without peace. The riots must end before any progress can be made; progress must be made so that riots have their end.

What none of us should do is remain silent or indifferent. Tonight and in the coming days, hold your children, your families, your loved ones. Talk to them, and your friends and co-workers, about your feelings and theirs, and understand the passions that underlay them. All of us in our own way care deeply about both the symptoms and the manifestations of this disease that plagues our nation and indeed the world. To recognize this shared desire for both justice and peace is the first step towards both.

George Takei

Spring Sk8 Jam Sacramento

Spring Sk8 Jam Sacramento

Oh my goodness! Last weekend was amazing! There aren’t even words to express the amount of fun that I had.

It was great that I brought Thing #1 instead of (pretty much) anyone else. We had such a good time, I can barely figure out what to write!!

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Rather than going over the minute and pesky travel details with you (because everything went so smoothly), I’ll just get to the good part.

Thursday night we drove to Stockton to a place called Residence Rink. When we got to the address on the directions, it seemed strange: it was a house in the middle of a residential area. As we drove by the first time, both Thing #1 and I thought, This seems more like a house party. There appeared to be bouncers in the parking lot, and the ‘parking lot’ really wasn’t much more than a drive-through driveway. We doubled-back when we saw the DJ’s bus stopped at a gas station and decided to follow them.

The bus drove back to the exact place where we had just been. We parked on the street (because that was the only parking available) and discussed it for a minute. We even called 411 to call the place and talk to a person. 411 had no record of a roller skating rink in Stockton, CA.

So, because the scene seemed kinda fishy and both of us are too shy for our own good, we decided just to return to the hotel…

It turns out that it’s a legitimate rink.

Friday night at the warm-up roll, I talked to one of the hosts. Someone converted their upstairs into a roller skating rink. It’s small, but it has a great wooden floor and people go there all the time. I mentioned that I wished we had known that – if we had, we would have know better and gone in and skated…

Friday we woke up and got groceries. Then, in the afternoon we took a country drive, sat in the shade by the hotel pool and rested to get ready for 5 hours of roller skating that night from Midnight to 5AM.

Thing #1 tried to keep up. She really did! But, after her first 3 hours, she was totally beat. Regardless, she endured until 4AM the first night. I am so proud of her!!

We got back to the hotel and fell into our beds around 5AM Saturday morning. I was only able to sleep for a couple of hours (that’s how I get on these sk8ventures) but I didn’t wake up Thing #1 until about an hour before it was time to leave for the picnic.

The food was amazing and the music rocked! TwoRaw Skate Club knows how to host a party!!
(BTW – If you ever want a really hoppin’ picnic, make sure you hire a DJ, yo!)

Saturday night skating was amazing!!!!!!!!!!!! There were a couple of groups that drove up from Los Angeles and I got to see some friends I met in Phoenix back in February who I wasn’t expecting to get to see…

And…

I am so proud of myself!! Normally I wouldn’t put myself out there and talk to new people. Normally I am a wallflower who just observes quietly. But last weekend I went around introducing myself to strangers and meeting Facebook friends I had never met in person… It totally paid off. I met some great new people who are practically famous in the Skate Community and I got to add them onto my ever-growing skate family!

Sunday afternoon there was bowling, but we decided not to go.

Thing #1 was so sore and tired. I let her sleep late into the afternoon and the she took a hot bath to relax.

When it came time for the cool-down skate at 10PM Sunday night she simply couldn’t find the energy to go. And her body hurt so bad…

But *I* went! (Of course! Did you expect anything less?!)

Most of the out-of-towners had left; there were only a few stragglers from Los Angeles. None of my Skate Family… 😦

Because of that, it was interesting skating the final night. The only people who even acknowledged that I was there were the skate hosts (who were wondering where my partner went) and the out-of-towners. No matter, though. It was a really peaceful and quiet night. I skated the entire 3 hours.

The floor was so smooth, I didn’t want to stop rolling…

And now, here’s a video of the picnic and Saturday Night’s Main Event made by my friend Jamal!