Smitten with Him

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Struggling with Self-Control

Working through my ‘new’ allergies (or whatever-the-fuck-they-are) has made things a bit more challenging than I would prefer.

I guess it serves me right for all those times I thought someone was faking their food allergy.

And trying to keep my drinking in check is barely working at all ūüė¶

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7 Ways to Tell You’re Just a Booty Call (and/or that Your S.O. has Probably Moved On)

  1. He/She doesn’t show any interest in any of the things that interest you
  2. He/She doesn’t buy you gifts “just because”, or for holidays, or ever
  3. He/She doesn’t take you¬†anywhere and always says “No” when you ask them to do something with you (outside of the bedroom)
  4. He/She stops inviting you over to his/her house
  5. He/She forgets your birthday, even after being reminded it’s coming up
  6. He/She only hears what he/she wants you to want, not what you actually want
  7. He/She can only find 3-4 hours a week to spend time with you – sequestered alone in your bedroom, working at least 50% of the time and ‘letting’ you please him/her the rest of the time

Don’t find out the hard way ūüė¶

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Meaningful Moments?

Sometimes I really struggle with sharing an experience/encounter here on my blog.

And I wait…

Sometimes for shame, but other times because I don’t know how to write about¬†it.

Or I simply don’t remember enough…

I used to think it was because I waited too long to share my moments.

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Sometimes I Forget

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Help me to remember everything is okay

Reassure me I am never as gross as I feel

I love to hear¬†I’m sexy, pretty, desirable, slutacious even!

Tell me you want me

And do it on the regular

Because sometimes I forget how to remind myself and believe…

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Monday Motivation: Getting Lost

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I Miss Us

The other day my broken heart felt like a panic attack

It started racing

My mind chased after

I¬†had to remind myself to breathe…

Stop thinking…

“Why do you let him have that¬†much¬†power over you?” I asked myself

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I miss us.

Not Loserman so much, but US…

What we were together

When we were awesome

Or were we ever really awesome?

Was I just lying to myself because I wanted us to be awesome?

I am SO angry with him for breaking us

For making me question what we were

I don’t even want us back

I don’t think we could even¬†have us back

So now I’m trying¬†to start fresh all over again

With someone else

Something different we’re learning together

It’s hard to be newly vulnerable and trusting

While I’m still¬†hurting

But he’s being vulnerable, too

I am thankful for this blog so I can just word-puke it all out there

And I don’t have to try and¬†explain all these feelings¬†to Mr. X

He’s trying to help me, but¬†I’m blocking part of myself from him

Right now I wish he could fix me

RIGHT NOW!!!

Beat it out of me

Spank it

Tickle it, kiss it, love it

SCARE IT OUT!!!

I don’t know, just make it go away!

The memories hurt and I want to forget every bit of it

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