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Last night I got a new tattoo!!

Like it?

Can you guess where it is?

And, because I paid for more time than it took, he also touched up my kitties ūüėčūüėĽ

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Long Term

Long Term

I was completely blind(side)ed by Loserman when he stopped talking to me.

Finally, after a solid year without him (*mostly), I think I am able to start sorting things out.

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6 Months

6 Months

She Wants

It’s been a little over a week since Mick had his flashback.

We have since spent another Thursday night, Friday evening and Sunday afternoon together – with and without kink and completely without incident.

Other than the two posts (Sharing Space and Mind and About Last Night), I haven’t written about it because my emotions have been pretty scrambled.

Thursday night was special to me because Mick accidentally let me see a part of his inner self. But after that, *he* was having issues with letting his guard down too much with me and *I* was having issues with liking him too much.

Spending Friday night with Alaska was supposed to help put some distance between Mick and me. Instead, it put more distance between Alaska and me (which is what needed to happen anyway).

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Letting Go

Letting Go

PassThrough

It occurred to me last Thursday morning that, maybe I am holding back on really liking Alaska because I am holding on to Loserman so tightly.

Why?¬†I don’t know. There is still a part of me deep inside that wants him back, that yearns for his body to hold mine against his…

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“Fall for You”

“Fall for You”

Fall for You
by Leela James

Here we are, together
And everything between us is good
I’m right here in this cloud, baby
Ready to fly but before I take
Another step

Would you catch me if I fall for you?
‘Cause I’m falling
I’m falling, I’m falling

I’m so used to standing
So used to being on my own
But this thing is new, baby
It feels like I’m losing control
I’ll take another step

If you catch me when I fall for you
‘Cause I’m falling
I’m falling, I’m falling

Will you promise to be there?
Stay by my side always?
Whenever I need you
Don’t let me down, no, no

If I give you my all, don’t let me fall
Would you do that for me, hold me?
Will you love, will you love me?

My heart is ready
For love and to be loved
And I chose you, baby
That’s the one thing I’m sure of
So I will take this one last step

So catch me, I’m falling for you
I’m falling
I’m falling, I’m falling

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My Necklace

At long last, I received my necklace back from TC. Thank you, TC.

Is it a coincidence that it arrived on my birthday or do you think he planned it that way?

As you can see, it’s nothing much. It isn’t made of gold or silver or platinum and it doesn’t have any precious stones set into it.

It’s just a plain, ordinary necklace that I made for myself, then decided to hang in my wonderful truck, Bear. It hung there the entire time I had¬†him (6 years).

When I¬†had to get rid of Bear, I thought about moving it to my car, Breezy, but I wasn’t ready to see it hanging in front of my face every day: morning and night, reminding me of painful¬†things too close to my heart. Instead I decided to give it to TC as a special “piece of me” that he would be able to keep close to him when I was far away.

Now that I have it back, I really don’t know what to do with it.

Now, it has even more negative energy and memories attached to it, and it used to be such a beautiful piece of myself.

Part of the band was mashed in a post office machine during the process of being mailed back and a few of the beads were disintegrated.

Maybe I can rebuild it and it will become more beautiful than before…