I haven’t talked to Loverman for a bunch of days and he didn’t return a text (gasp!). Which is, actually, not like him at all. I wasn’t worried (yet) but I was a teensy-weensy bit hurt… So, last night he finally had a chance to call and we talked for a couple of hours (I *LOVE* listening to him talk :)) But I cried really hard for a while because things are going to (OMG) change! And not in the good way…
He works for a security company and his current job came to an end abruptly (earlier than he thought, but he knew it was coming). Then again, abruptly, they moved him to a new job that’s a tad bit closer to his house. 40 hours a week, same hourly wage, etc… Very Nice! (kind of…) But his hours are drastically different and not even remotely convenient! (Can I just mention that I really really really hate mixed feelings! Especially when they’re so extremely opposite.)
Saturday nights have been our nights for pretty much the last 2 years. We have a quick dinner at McD’s and go out roller skating together. Get our jam on. Have some fun. Enjoy each other’s and other people’s company. I’ve grown quite accustomed to the habit. So, that must mean it’s time for it to change!
All along I knew that this was a distinct possibility — his hours changing. I even knew that it could totally fuck things up. But that didn’t make my heart feel less trampled when he told me that we couldn’t have Saturdays any more and it would be a couple of weeks before he gets used to his new schedule. We were planning a special birthday night/day thing next week because it’s been so long since we’ve been together it’s starting to get to him, too (that man is like a rock I tell you ;). I hope we can still get together for that, at least!)
I get it. These things happen. Even when you’re happily married and not trying to sneak around making plans 2+ weeks after someone’s B-day, sometimes things just don’t work out how you want. And, I don’t have too much to complain about, really. I’m just SO disappointed!!!
Now, I just need to settle myself down, practice what I preach and just be thankful for the times when we will be together (tonight there will be time for a few cocktails, but nothing really more. Ooooh, anticipation! blah, blah, blah…)
And, BTW, I looked in the mirror and today I want a new face even more. I look so puffy and old and tired and sad (I know, I know, crying in the middle of the night and sleeping like shit really doesn’t help)… It is almost Halloween, I could just go and pick up a “happy mask” or something.