I need your help…
How does one just start loving themself?
I need your help…
How does one just start loving themself?
Everything that you see and love, you are connected to it
If you look at something and say, “That is so beautiful!”, then say “I am that. I am.”
We are all connected by energy
We are all the beautiful things that we see
…all the abundance.
We are that
Rock out your world
Rock out your life
You are enough and you are worth it
The world needs you
I don’t wear a wedding ring, but I do wear a ring on that finger.
Last year I gave it to myself for Christmas. It was on sale and, when I saw it, it made me think of how much I have done for myself over the past few years.
How I am always there for me. What I have been able to do for me.
I got it to signify my eternal love and steadfastness to my own self.
There are very few times I am not wearing it. I even wore it on my coffee date with Mr. X.
I’m sure that everyone else who sees it sees a wedding ring, but I don’t care.
I know why I wear it and that’s all that matters to me.
One of the first two tasks given to me by Mr. X is to write a positive post about myself (the other is to let him know, every day before noon, that I am safe).
Hmmmm….
There are SO many things that I am proud of myself for! I guess I don’t sit down very often and quantify them.
While I’ve been growing, there have been times when I have wrongly given someone else credit for my own emotional advancement and I am so happy that I could see it (eventually) and give the credit back to myself.
When I *do* look at my accomplishments, I can’t believe how far I have brought myself since I moved to Colorado 7 years ago!
My biggest problem now is learning how to deal with this new self-esteem thing. Feeling good about myself still feels strange.
It’s something that will take time for me to get used to.
I think I’m doing okay, though. If I wasn’t, I would never have met Mr. X! 🙂
catalyst – 1902, formed in Eng. (on analogy of analyst) from Gk. kata “down” + -lysis “a loosening” (comb. form).
Loverman has been a great catalyst for me (see definition #3 above). I know that we have rough times and I complain about feeling alone and abandoned by him, but also I know that we have a “special” relationship. One that requires more patience and understanding. One where I have to understand that, even though it seems like I am always “coming in last”, really Loverman is “saving the best for last” (and I AM the best!!)!
I have confusing emotions tearing through my insides when it comes to my relationship with Loverman — emotions that I cannot explain or justify, they’re just there and I have to learn to process them. I have to learn to rationalize my fears and frustrations and communicate them to my most intimate friend. I have to trust that telling him my scariest, most overwhelming feelings will also act as a catalyst in our relationship. It might help him be able to express his most scariest and overwhelming feelings to me, too.
My move to Colorado was a catalyst (see definition #2 — although I think we may have actually “affected” the state of Colorado 😉 ) Coming here was the catalyst that brought Loverman and I together and, for that, I will be forever grateful! (He moved here, too, about 7 years before me.)
Both meeting Loverman and moving to Denver, are the catalysts that helped me break out of my invisible shell (I say “invisible” because I didn’t know it was there). I have learned that I love myself very much. I also learned that wasn’t truly myself before. I used to worry so much about whether my parents thought I was doing the right thing, or if it was something Mr. Doom-n-Gloom would like.
Now, I worry about what *I* like and what *I* think about myself because eventually I realized that it isn’t what I have on the outside or what other people think of me that makes me wonderful, it’s what I have on the inside — and I love my inside! Finally!
Has there been a catalyst in your life? Do you need one?