Smitten with Him

grown-up stuff happens here sometimes

I Hate Myself for Loving You

But I guess that’s kind of what love is, right?

Before my skate trip to Houston in February, I mentioned to Alaska that I might like for him to pick me up from the airport when I returned.

At that point, it had been 4 weeks since we’d seen each other and I was really starting to miss him. Even for my extracurricular escapades and the fact that we’d been communicating nearly every day, I missed the hell out of him and wanted to feel his gigantic chocolate body next to mine…

When he couldn’t make the effort to come and get me because he was showing houses to a client he already admitted to disliking immensely (AND after knowing about my trip for over a week), I composed my little note to him on the train/bus ride back to my apartment.

And later, when I texted him I’d made it home safe, he simply answered: masturbate for me now and send me the video

???

Just do I as I say

This made me even more upset with him, but I did as I was told…

Before I fell asleep, he did send me a “good girl” 😉

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“Shot Me Down”

Great cover (and video!!) by David Guetta featuring Skylar Grey

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“Smoke”

Smoke

by CES CRU featuring Liz Suwandi

[Intro: Liz Suwandi]
Take off your blind fold
Tell me what you see
Interchanging doors
Not a corridor or screen
Your naked eye
Trapped inside a dream
Unveil your disguise
Because nothing’s what it seems

[Hook x2: Liz Suwandi]
You can tell me what you want
You can tell me what you need
But love is in the smoke
And we can’t even breathe
And I can not see you
And You can not see me
But love is in the smoke
And we can’t even breathe

[Verse 1: UBI]
You take everything you want, you take what you need
And me shattered into pieces is what you leave
It don’t matter what they see, no it just can’t be
Now our love is in the smoke, and I just can’t breathe
You got me gaspin’
I know when it will happen
Zappin’ all my energy, its sexual harassment
You see I’ll never be the same, now that we got close
Now my passion is for pain and I breathe hot smoke
Your love is like a drug, I wanna taste it
So slip it in my blood, I’m gonna take it
Addicted to your buzz, I’m wishin’ that you was mine
Sittin in your sunshine so amazin’
I’m baskin’ in the light
Light castin’ through the haze
Maybe we were meant to be
Maybe not, who could say
Now I look for you again
But I still can’t see
Cuz our love is in the smoke
Baby we can’t breathe

[Hook]

[Verse 2: Godemis]
I smell the smoke in the room
The room is’a buzzin’
She told me that the roof was on fire
I knew it wasn’t
Now the spot is heatin’ up
Gettin’ hotter under the collar
Let this motherfucker burn, shit
We don’t need any water
We can teeter and totter
But you don’t need to be coddled
I’m headed down this road alone
I don’t want you to follow
I’m sittin’ in the sun alone
Posted up in strangeland
Sippin’ KC teas, bumpin’ Kelvin rock and Raybans
Bitches think it’s all about the pussy and a spray tan
To each it’s own, if that completes your cypher, fuck it amen
It’s hot as hell out here
Maybe degrees over
She feels like she got burns
Maybe she needs closure
It feels like the pilot light is out in this bitch
I’m still in the kitchen, like really this is as hot as it gets?
I’m starin’ through the smoke, tryin’ to catch a last vision of her
The smoke’s rollin’ upward while the flame’s bein’ smothered

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Throwback Thursday: When Does the Hurting Stop?

Eek! The Cat

The Terrible Thunderlizards: Bill

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Protected: I Am So Naive

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Undress Me Now

Super sexy…

Using your mind
Imagine our skin
Joined at the hip
Joined from within
By using your eyes
You’re freezing my frame
Watching our clothes burst into flames

(Undress me now, you know how)
Using your eyes now
(Undress me now, you know how)

Using your mind
Using your mind

So give me a light
Oh give me a drink
Just give me a reason
To feel what I think

(Undress me now, you know how)
Using your eyes now
(Undress me now, you know how)
Using your mind

(Undress me now, you know how)
Using your eyes now
(Undress me now, you know how)
Using your mind
Using my mind

(Undress me now, you know how)
Using your eyes now
(Undress me now, you know how)
You know how, you know how
You know how, you know how

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Aladdin

This week’s earworm

my desktop wallpaper

Rest in Peace, Robin!

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Something Fun for Friday

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Crush

Crush by Du1l

Crush
by Du1l on DeviantArt

Crush
by Zhane

I needed sunshine in my days
Something to wash away the pain
I saw a very gentle side of him
That took my heart and made it sing
I wish he’d run away and hide with me
Love hurts so much more than it seems
There was one thing I didn’t show
I love him and he doesn’t know

I wonder if I ever see the day
Will I ever find the nerve to say
I love you
And will he turn around, walk away
Will he leave or will he stay
If I tell him

Could he be the one who was in my dreams
Could he be the one sent down for me
There was one thing I failed to show, babe
I love him and he doesn’t know

Have you ever loved somebody
Secretly loved somebody who didn’t know
Have you fell in love with somebody
Deeply loved somebody who didn’t know

I love him and he doesn’t know me
I love him and he doesn’t know
There was one thing I didn’t show, babe
I love him and he doesn’t know

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Sunday Science: How to Get High the Olde Tyme Way

LSD is my favorite recreational drug! I never knew I could (kind of) grow it at home!

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