Mid-December I broke up with Alaska via video:
It lasted all of 2 weeks
I took him back because he agreed with what I said
And told me he would start trying harder
He did
For about 2 more weeks
After that, we became very irritable with each other
Even though we only saw each other once a week
When I would say something
He would tell me he didn’t understand
And then say it was stupid
I got sick of it and broke up with him again
This time via email – here
That was March 5th
Of course, he never paid me that $145
So, a week later…
I wrote him another letter telling him why I would never take him back (and that he should fucking pay me!): here
Since then, he has tried to call me a couple of times
But I blocked his number
Because I knew, if he called, I would answer
And we’ve re-matched on Tinder
(I only swiped right to see if he did first. He did ☹)
His note to me was: “Do you eat pussy?”
Argh! What an ass.
I unmatched from him
If he wants to contact me, he can email me or message me on Facebook
Or come to my house with that $145 and gigantic apology
Ha ha… Never gonna happen.
But I’m still having a tough time not calling him
You see, I am an expert at taking people back
My ex-husband and I broke up at least 3 times before we got married
But then we were married for 20+ years
Loserman stopped talking to me countless times
But, every single time he started talking to me again
I took him back
Until he treated me so bad I couldn’t bear the thought of him talking to me like that again
I am hoping that is where I am with Alaska
One thing that my mom taught me when I was little
(and it stuck because it’s a good thing)
If you don’t have something nice to say, don’t say anything at all
And I still only have mean, nasty things to say to Alaska
Which sucks because he’s directly involved in my Network Marketing business ☹
There are some great new products and I no longer have him to help me
He was supposed to be my leader and my “mentor”
tell me if I’m out of line for saying this, but YOU LADY, need to hold your head up high, say goodbye to his bullshit forever, know that you are worthy of love and, dammit, do some work on your self esteem. Does he deserve you? Not a fucking chance. I don’t understand the whole dom / sub thing but it seems humiliating to you and I DON’T THINK YOU DESERVE THAT. get out in the world and slowly find yourself again and a guy who deserves you. You feel strange maybe because you feel you don’t deserve more, you’ll accept him back (these guys don’t change by the way) because he’s better than nothing, BUT THAT IS NOT TRUE. You’re cool, you’re worthy, say goodbye to Alaska for good,move forward, onwards and upwards.
(and I may have no clue what I am talking about, feel free to tell me to fuck off too!!)
And good luck!
Omg! Definitely don’t fuck off!!!!
Thank you for saying all that! I always wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt because he *is* a decent caring person, just not with me.
I need to get back to blogging. It helps me unload my shit and my friends help bring me back to earth.
You need to feel safe. Feel happy and be loved the way you deserve. Always rooting for Team Smitten! Take care
Thank you very much. I hope you’re well.
Take care Smitten, you still have a big heart to let people in, cause you are very nice. Yes, sadly nice people get hurt. But i hope you find the strength to always make the right decisions and stay happy…
Aw, thank you so much! Sometimes we give people too many chances when they should only have the one. Slowly I am learning that lesson. Xoxo