Smitten with Him

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Leaving Alaska (Finally!)

on March 29, 2018

Mid-December I broke up with Alaska via video:

It lasted all of 2 weeks

I took him back because he agreed with what I said

And told me he would start trying harder

He did

For about 2 more weeks

After that, we became very irritable with each other

Even though we only saw each other once a week

When I would say something

He would tell me he didn’t understand

And then say it was stupid

I got sick of it and broke up with him again

This time via email – here

That was March 5th

Of course, he never paid me that $145

So, a week later…

I wrote him another letter telling him why I would never take him back (and that he should fucking pay me!): here

Since then, he has tried to call me a couple of times

But I blocked his number

Because I knew, if he called, I would answer

And we’ve re-matched on Tinder

(I only swiped right to see if he did first. He did ☹)

His note to me was: “Do you eat pussy?”

Argh! What an ass.

I unmatched from him

If he wants to contact me, he can email me or message me on Facebook

Or come to my house with that $145 and gigantic apology

Ha ha… Never gonna happen.

But I’m still having a tough time not calling him

You see, I am an expert at taking people back

My ex-husband and I broke up at least 3 times before we got married

But then we were married for 20+ years

Loserman stopped talking to me countless times

But, every single time he started talking to me again

I took him back

Until he treated me so bad I couldn’t bear the thought of him talking to me like that again

I am hoping that is where I am with Alaska

One thing that my mom taught me when I was little

(and it stuck because it’s a good thing)

If you don’t have something nice to say, don’t say anything at all

And I still only have mean, nasty things to say to Alaska

Which sucks because he’s directly involved in my Network Marketing business ☹

There are some great new products and I no longer have him to help me

He was supposed to be my leader and my “mentor”

6 responses to “Leaving Alaska (Finally!)

  1. tell me if I’m out of line for saying this, but YOU LADY, need to hold your head up high, say goodbye to his bullshit forever, know that you are worthy of love and, dammit, do some work on your self esteem. Does he deserve you? Not a fucking chance. I don’t understand the whole dom / sub thing but it seems humiliating to you and I DON’T THINK YOU DESERVE THAT. get out in the world and slowly find yourself again and a guy who deserves you. You feel strange maybe because you feel you don’t deserve more, you’ll accept him back (these guys don’t change by the way) because he’s better than nothing, BUT THAT IS NOT TRUE. You’re cool, you’re worthy, say goodbye to Alaska for good,move forward, onwards and upwards.
    (and I may have no clue what I am talking about, feel free to tell me to fuck off too!!)
    And good luck!

    • smitten says:

      Omg! Definitely don’t fuck off!!!!

      Thank you for saying all that! I always wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt because he *is* a decent caring person, just not with me.

      I need to get back to blogging. It helps me unload my shit and my friends help bring me back to earth.

  2. Da Absentee says:

    You need to feel safe. Feel happy and be loved the way you deserve. Always rooting for Team Smitten! Take care

  3. Take care Smitten, you still have a big heart to let people in, cause you are very nice. Yes, sadly nice people get hurt. But i hope you find the strength to always make the right decisions and stay happy…

    • smitten says:

      Aw, thank you so much! Sometimes we give people too many chances when they should only have the one. Slowly I am learning that lesson. Xoxo

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